Nnnnnn. I hope, I hope, I hope.

I wish I could drive.

Something horrible. I just realized that if I go to Calvin College, I won’t be in Minnesota. If I’m not in Minnesota, I’ll be going to a different church. If I’m going to a different church, I won’t be going to the same church. If I’m not going to the same church, I WON’T. I WON’T. I WON’T. Aaaaaaah. What to do? I still have a year though. A year to decide. A year to know if it’s worth it. It’s not, you know. I know this as well, but I still hope, even if I know.

Then again, I don’t even know if I will be accepted. Besides, am I really going to make a huge decision based on something so.. pointless? No.. I’m not, I know that for sure, but I will still be upset.

Actually, by the end of this year, who knows if I’ll even care?

[I hope I do].